For some strange reason, I had this crazy idea that I’d have all this new free time once the baby came. I’d take full advantage of my being out on maternity leave getting to know my little bundle of joy through daily snuggles, trips to the grocery store, playdates. I daydreamed of trying new recipes and blogging them while gazing over at my sleeping beauty, taking trips to the mall and picking out new outfits with baby in tow, and meeting up with mommy friends to go on stroller walks or coffee dates discussing the latest baby trends and gear.
I’m lucky if I can manage a shower, a hot meal, or a distraction/crying-free outing. I’m lucky if I can make a quick trip to Trader Joe’s or Baby’s “R” Us without Nora wailing during the whole car ride. I’m lucky if I am not drenched in sweat while nursing in the back seat of my car. I’m lucky if I can manage to cook anything but pre-made freezer meals for dinner. Oh, the glamour of motherhood!
Nora June Ha Eun Park arrived at 12:15 am on Friday, March 6, 2015, weighing in at six pounds and seven ounces and stretching 20 and a half inches long. I’ll never forget the moment when the doctor placed her fresh and warm little body in my arms as I cried and embraced my daughter for the first time while she exclaimed, “happy birthday!”
Although all the things I mentioned above are true, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Even through all the sleepless nights, the fussy fits, and the really, long and tough days, I’m so glad He chose me to be Nora’s momma. I’m amazed each day at her growth, how her personality is enveloping, and all the developmental changes taking place. Sometimes I so desperately want to freeze time to savor the ordinary day to day moments that fill up so much of motherhood. I love her sweet and laid back demeanor, her giant smiles when we meet her first thing in the morning, the way she sings along with James and I when we play the guitar or sing to her, her infectious giggles, or how she seems to bring so much joy to any crappy or stressful day. Everyone tells you to enjoy every stage because it goes by so fast, and it’s so true. I feel like I blinked and now she’s rolling all over the place, sitting in her Bumbo like a queen, and getting ready to eat solids #uglycry.
Here are some of my favorites from a newborn shoot we did with Mandi Pool Photography when Nora was only 15 days old. Even though it wasn’t that long ago, it’s hard to remember she was ever that small. I woke up the morning of the shoot so, so tired and really not wanting to put on normal clothes or makeup, but I’m so glad I did. I’m so happy we’ll have these photos to cherish the beginning of parenthood.